Am I really asking too much?


Why is it hard for them to understand me? I don’t see anything wrong about what I’m doing. All I wanted to do is to teach them to stand on their own. I don’t like to see them depending on others because not all the time, people are around and always available for them. I’m not turning my back on them, I’m just thinking about their future. What if I’m gone?

You might think that I’m a big-headed person because I’m the only person that you can count on. I never thought of that in my entire life, hope you know that. If you only knew, I’m always thinking about you, all the time! Am I just pretending that I’m a responsible daughter and a sister? Sometimes I feel like I’m just nothing in this world. I hope someday, I could feel my worth. I hope that you appreciate the little things I do for you.

Why am I too emotional about this, maybe because I was hurt. All I’m asking is to understand me. Maybe you’ll never understand me because you really don’t know what’s inside me. You really don’t know what’s on my mind. You really don’t know what’s happening in school. You don’t know the pressure I have in school. I know you’re tired too but I think I’m more tired than what you think.

Sometimes I want to fight back but I just can’t because I don’t want an argument. I don’t want you to get hurt. I don’t want to fight you back simply because I love you. You’re my world dude.. hehe

I’m hoping that my wounds are gone tomorrow, so that I can work properly. I hate this feeling! My head aches and my heart too. Come on! Now tell me, am I really asking too much? I hope not.

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I’m the 2nd eldest among the five children. My elder sister has her own job and family. My elder sister and her son are living with us. My parents are working too and my nephew is being taken care of by the maid during the week days. The jobs of the maid are to clean the house, wash the clothes, look after my nephew and feed him. I’m the one who’s responsible for his bath, vitamins and many more. Most of the time his with me and sometimes I feel like I’m his mother.

My nephew is sleeping with my parents. Everytime my parents go to work, they ask me to sleep beside my nephew. Around 10 am, I have to bathe him because I have my class at 12 noon. I’m also responsible in cleaning him up before sleeping at night and in brushing his teeth. I’m also responsible with the assignment of my twin brothers. Before dinner, I see to it that their assignments are done and checked if their answers are correct.

Of course I do have responsibility with my studies and self too. I have to do my assignments, projects, reporting and so many requirements. These requirements of mine are not that easy. Sometimes it will take me a 2-3 sleepless nights before finishing it. Though it’s difficult, I’m still enjoying my studies. I also see to it that I have time with my friends though sometimes I don’t go with them because I have something to do at home.

My parents are only asking us to finish our studies, that’s why I’m striving hard to finish my studies and see them happy. My elder sister didn’t finish her study that’s why my parents are looking forward on me. I want to see my parents happy and I don’t want to disappoint them. The biggest fear in my life is to disappoint my parents and see them crying because of me. I love my parents more than myself.

I love it when my family asks help from me. Everytime they ask help from me, I feel like I have the purpose in our family and in the world. I’m overwhelmed everytime my family asks me to do something for them because I feel that I’m trustworthy.

How I wish time runs fast so that I can overcome all these worries that I have. I have a lot of responsibilities in our family and I have nothing against that. I love helping my family though sometimes it’s tiring. Most of the time, people say that I will not get marry because I’m so devoted with my family. Sometimes I see myself giving up with so many problems in school but I just have to fight because I have my goal. My main goal in life is to see my parents proud of me because I’m graduating and that to see them proud of their selves because after all the sufferings and hard works they did, finally, I’m graduating.

I wanted to give back to my parents the love, sufferings, care and hardships that they gave us, specially me. I’m not vocal about my feelings and I’ m not showy too. People may see me dry but deep inside I’m not. I just can’t express myself. I don’t like my family to see me crying, hurt, giving up, worried, unhappy because I don’t like to see them worried about me.

I’m just an ordinary person living in an ordinary world. I often cry all by myself because of so many problems. I have problems that people wouldn’t know. I have problems that my family & friends do not know. They may see me laughing at all times, cheering up other people but deep within me, there’s something wrong. Anyway, I can handle myself. I’m not saying that I don’t need them it’s just that I’m used to it. I’m used to solve my own problems. I’m used to keep my problems only to myself.

I love my family. They give me strength and courage to go own with my life. They are my inspiration. Everything I do is all for them. üüü

The best VJ Hunt ever produced!

I didn't expect that our production would be as an extravagant as it was. All I know was that,, we, the ABMC 3 and other SAMASKOM officers, gave our best and we did everything just to make that production successful.

I'm so proud of MARIANE CRUZ. She designed the stage and even the posters. it was her idea that's why we came up with that kind of stage ang all other stuffs like the trophy, the vtr and etc. She worked very hard in preparing for the props that were needed for the set.

Mariane Cruz wouldn't finished all the work without our help, ABMC 3. We worked hand in hand just to prove that we can make it even without the help of mmc. Honestly, we were asking help from the mmc but unfortunately, they did not help us. It was tiring but we enjoyed doing the work because we supported each other and I realized that no matter how hard a project/work is, as long as your groupmates work hand in hand and has unity, you will always come up with a good job.

I'm also proud of GEAN MENDOZA. He worked very hard in organizing such kind of production. He often absent himself in our class just to settle things regarding the VJ HUnt. His work was not that easy, he visited almost all schools in Angeles City just to ask them to join the competition. He did a great job.

" To Gean and to all Abmc 3 and SAMASKOM officers, Congratulations, you did a great job, that's the best VJ hunt ever produced at AUF, I'm so proud of you, that would be your midterm exam in comm 7, you all deserve 100% unless gean gives a seperateevaluation" - Mam Virgie's Message to us.

online to print

If you will compare PDI online newspaper from PDI printed newspaper, there is also a big difference. With the printed, photos and advertisements has a bigger space unlike with online.
I could say that online is cluttered but with the printed, somehow it’s organized. The printed is organized in a way that the title of the news is being accompanied with article itself. No need to click or browse everything. Good thing about online is that, though cluttered, articles are not cut. You can read the whole article in one page unlike the printed; you have to look for the page of the other half of the story.

I could say that online newspaper is more accessible than with the print. Everybody is into internet. There is no need for us to buy a copy, just visit the web and there you will find the news. I also prefer the online one because it is more updated. It also provides an instant access or conversation about important matters in a community. Like for example, if you want to know what’s happening in pampanga, just visit the website of sunstar pampanga. No need for you to buy the newspaper. Though you’re not in pampanga, you are still being updated on what’s happening there specially if you have relatives there. As a mass communication student, P 20.00 is too much. And not all the time we can watch the news on television because of many works in school.

That's what i think..

I have nothing against the Arroyo Administration and most of all, I have nothing to do against the First Gentleman, Mike Arroyo. As a citizen of this country, Philippines, I only say what I observe.

I believe that gossips are 90% true. People would not make fun of you if the issue is not true. First Gentleman Mike Arroyo is now on hot seat again. He's always involved in a corruption issue.

I believe that he's a corruptman. I can't see any support from him in building up our country. he's always out of the country. I don't know what is his business there but all I could say is that, He has a very fortunate life. He has no worries in life because he has all the MONEY.

No one would dare to invent an issue against Mike Arroyo. He's the husband of our very own president and no one, I guess, would dare to tell a lie against him. If in that case, maybe the accusations against him is true. Everytime there is a corruption issue in our country, Mike Arroyo is always present.

How can the government fight the corruption in this country if the First Gentleman is the head of it? As far as I know, the accusation against him is true. Sen. Ping Lacson even cited some proof of evidences just to prove the country that Mike Arroyo is a corruptman.

Everytime issues against Mike arroyo arise he's always out of the country. maybe he's escaping from the media. He's trying to hide from the people.

People revealing the truth are just concern in our society and that they want to stop the anomalies that's happening in our country. I'm not saying that Mike Arroyo is a truly corruptman but my point here is why don't leaders serve the country with all their hearts..? Nothing will be taken out from them.

Christmas time, a time to share our love....

Christmas time, a time to share our love....

It's 14 days to go before christmas!!!

Everyone is excited to celebrate their christmas for this year. How do you celebrate your christmas?

I used to celebrate my christmas with my family. Every 24th day of Dcember, we are all busy preparing for our exchange gift and for our Noche Buena. 12am of christmas day, everybody wakes up fopr the Noche Buena and for the exchange gift. of course, everyone is excited to eat the food and to receive our gift. Every christmas morning, before going to church, our neighbors visit our house specially the young ones to ask for some aguinaldo from my parents and some from me and my sisters. hehe After our neighbors leave our house, we all dress up and prepare to go to church. We go to church to thank God for the blessings he had given us and of course, to greet him happy birthday. After going to church, we will go to my Grandmother's house to give her gift and of course, to ask for our "aguinaldo". hehe I believe that christmas is incomplete without an aguinaldo. hehe

After my grandmother's house, we go home to wait for some visitors to give their gift and give aguinaldo.

After all those visitors, we can freely do whatever we want. Sometimes, we watch movie on the movie houise with our friends or if not, we're just at home sleeping and eating. hehe

we all love christmas! every christmas people are so kind. though no money. people tend to give some to their " inaanak". and it feels good when you give or share whar you have to other people specially when they are in need.

Go CAS!!!

GO CAS

This year's cheering competition was an extravagant because the College of Arts and Sciences (CAS), my college, won! the cheering competition was held on Dec. 5, 2006. During that time, i arrived at school at around 9 am, as I arrived at school, the CAS was already performing. I tried to watch but then i didn't make it because it was crowded. People were yelling specially the CAS students. As they performed, I felt so nervous because they might commit a mistake or somebody from the group might fall.

After the performance of the CAS, i kept on hearing some students saying that the CAS performed the best. After hearing those words, I felt that my college has the chance to win.

After the performance of all the college, everybody was excited to know who will win the cheering competition. As the host announced the winners, I always anticipated to hear my college every rank. fortunately, my college was the champion. Though I'm not a performer, I felt so happy. I guess I can't explain what i felt for that time.

When the CAS won, I thought that the CAS is not "kulelat". Everything has changed. Since then, the CAS keeps on winning. Like for example in the Debate, CAS was the champion. Choir competition durng the cultural, CAS got the 1st runner up and etc.